So I get to the nicu yesterday..everything was fine and normal in the morning. We cuddled for about 3 hours...most of which I slept because I drove through the night instead of day so I could spend the most time possible with Caid. It was exactly what I needed. I missed my girl. She changed so much already. I can`t get over how fast preemies change their looks. After our snuggle I left with plans on returning later.
Later comes, and I show up only to find her with a huge veiny belly and a huge tube down her throat sucking everything out of her belly. I wasn`t prepared for that. A week had gone by, and nothing had gone wrong at all. She was getting my breast milk by tube at 14 ml every two hours for about 6 feeds and then boom, her stomach balloons up...
...and gets all veiny. Now obv her stomach isn`t huge here as I wasn`t snapping pictures when all of this was going on. They kept the tube in just incase. However, her belly stayed pretty veiny. She was really twitchy when I first got there and kept waking up with painful looks on her face. She really wasnt herself. She was breathing really fast, then really slow. She had an apnea..then another later. The first two she had since the first day she was born. I sat there and spoke to her though, told her that everything would be okay while I held her hand for an hour sniffling through my tears like a little baby. (come on, you would cry too if that were your little one) Her breathing started slowing and got more regular, she started opening her eyes a lot and becoming more alert. She was even smiling a lot. Now while I know the smiles are only gas and the tube down her throat blocked a lot of them, they melted my heart anyways! She even locked her eyes on my face a few times. She also didn`t wince in pain anymore when the doctors would come in and touch her belly. I was just very happy that she wasn`t in a lot of pain anymore.
Anyways, the doctors said that this is quite common in babies born at her gestation..that the fact she went a week without anything is great. They said she bounced back faster than expected. They said she will have a straight tube..which I guess is another throat tube, put in today in place with the sucking one. They said she had no signs of infection yet, but that could be what caused the distension of her belly. They said they would monitor her much more closely for the next 24 hours. They said that they would put her on antibiotics the second they thought there was an infection. Her billirubin (sp?) went back up to 162 down from 120-some the day before. They upped the ammount of everything she was getting in her IV because they aren`t going to put food in her tummy again until they are sure she can handle it. Give her poor belly a break. They said if the apneas get worse, they will likely give her caffiene and if that doesn`t work, c-pap and then intubate her after that if that fails too. They assured me that this was just a road bump and that with prems, always expect 2 steps forward, one step back.
Here is a picture of her eyes and one of her tiny litte diaper.
What a scary day...She just turned a week old that day. Nothing went wrong at all until that point.
Then the next day, a woman off of the board was going to be at the same hospital, and of course I wanted her to meet Bracey. She gave soooo many things. She gave me two garbage bags full of baby clothes that are just to die for!
Bracey however was doing worse than lastnight. THEN we left and she took a turn again..and then she had to get a spinal tap and I couldnt even be there. I had to wait two hours.
This is what she posted about meeting us. Isn`t she just beyond sweet?
| So, after all of these months chatting with everyone and trying to get to know all of the Sept. mom's I finally got to meet a wonderful and brave Sept. mama!!! Cindy |
She is so sweet, and her "little" girl Bracey is amazing!!!!!!! It is really hard to believe that one little girl can have such a huge impact on your pregnancy. I left the NICU with Cindy yesterday feeling a lot of different things. I wasn't sure how I would feel being pregnant and seeing Bracey but, she was so amazing!! She is such a fighter.
What was really cool that fiesty little Bracey was a little upset and then Cindy held her hand, Bracey opened her eyes and settled right down. Even at such a young age babies know who their mama is
Bracey is such a fighter!! She has really big hands and feet. Her eyes are still really dark and she has a lot of hair. She has these great little wrinkles on her forehead when she looks up. For just being a little one she has lots of fat on her legs...I couldn't stop soaking up every bit of her.
I can't wait to see Cindy & Bracey again. Hopefully it will be sooner than later. Cindy is here all by herself trying to get around the city. She really misses her Caid So any words of encouragement to her would be awesome!!! I am really going to try to get there again soon!!
Just my little update! Thanks for reading!!!
Sorry for the spelling mistakes
How encouraging is that?
So then So I went in there Monday, and her tube was out! I was so excited!!!The tube down her throat turned out to be the cause of the apneas and she has a bladder infection. It wasn`t what caused it they are pretty sure it was just how fast they put her up to full feeds... when they don`t usually rush a 29 weeker. BUT, if she didn`t pull this crap, then they may not have found it this early since it didn`t show up.. She was on antibiotics before it even showed up.
Then on Tuesday (yesterday), I posted this.
|I`m sorry...I feel so lame when I just copy and paste what I said from the TWW board, I just have not had a second of free time.|